Thursday, January 29, 2009

It still doesn't feel real

I have a baby sleeping in the room next to me.

A year ago:
I was taking a cocktail of drugs and getting up every day in the dark to go and get my blood tested and get scanned.
I was downing litres of milk and water to help grow healthy eggs.
I was hopeful but also disbelieving that this cycle would be any different to cycles 1, 2, 3 and 4.
I was licking the wounds caused by the last clinic i'd been to telling me we'd never succeed at IVF and that I should give up.
I was wondering what to do next and what I would do with my life.

Eggs were taken from my body and my husband's sperm injected into them. 4 embryos were created and we waited to see what would happen. On Valentine's Day 2008 two of those embryos were returned to me.

One of those embryos became Barnaby. I still can't believe that little boy next door sighing in his sleep is real.

I so want my blog friends to get there too.


Soapchick said...

It is real, go give a little love pinch to Barnaby to prove it! haha.

How about some new pics of your little Prince?

Oh and I'm getting close!

Alex and Jill said...

I never tire of hearing stories like this. :) Enjoy every minute with that little bundle of joy. He's a true gift from God.


Betty M said...

Say hi to Barnaby for me.
This time of year is very special to me too as both of mine are the result of mid Feb ECs/ETs 3 years apart.

Bea said...

Sometimes I wonder if I died at some point and the whole thing is just ghost fiction. But I can be morbid like that.