Thursday, May 03, 2007

Friend audit....?

I wasn't going to blog today - i'm meant to be working (as ever) and am due to meet a friend tonight, but i suddently felt the need.

I've spoken to two friends today. Both blessed with three children and both have made flippant comments that I just had to bite my lip over. This morning's friend was moaning about her three year old and said something along the lines of "you don't really want this do you?". Hmmmm. The second heard how i've had quite a few working lunches and lunch with a FII (Friend In Infertility) this week and said you know you won't have time for all this socialising if you're successful in your treatment. I think that was born of her being totally snowed under by her brood.

Both comments made me feel a million miles away in terms of mindset from two girls who i've known since I was 10 yrs old. It makes me feel I need to mix with other childfree girls rather than my old girlfriends. I HATE what this S***ing infertility does to all aspects of life.

Vent over.

Had my first NHS screening appointment today to get referred to the IVF unit for NHS treatment. It was amazingly efficient. I didn't for a minute feel that they were less good because it was free. They scanned me and took blood to do Day 2 FSH and LH bloods. (BTW I got my period a couple of days ago which was a bit of a downer, but not really unexpected) I was in, scanned, bled and out in just under an hour. It can take that long at my v expensive private IVF clinic!

Must go. Going to see if I can post photos of the party food tomorrow. Am totally useless at technical stuff, but will do my best! xx

3 comments:

Reproductive Jeans said...

I am so sorry that your friends made the comments that we all dread to hear...its so hard when you feel that you have such a close friendship and then a comment like that makes you feel millions of miles away...and torn apart. It does suck the S*** IF makes us go through....

Glad the NHS went well--efficient is always good!

My Reality said...

I don't think people realize how much those comments can hurt. I want nothing more than to be too tied down with children to meet a friend for lunch. Sadly, that is not the case. I can pick up and go without a care in the world. But I wish I couldn't.

Hopeful Mother said...

People often don't think before they insert their feet in their mouths. And then they don't even realize it afterward!

I'm sorry you had to deal with it.

I am glad to hear your NHS appt. went well!