Thursday, April 05, 2007

Yet another PS...

Cool and unemotional? Yeah right! A menstruating girl with a side order of extra progesterone is not likely to be either of those things.

Replace "cool and unemtional" with "in shock"

Shock's over now. Mr G and I had a big cry - HOW much do I hate to see my gorgeous boy cry. I just want to make it all better and neither of us can.

Am now feeling what I should be....desperately unhappy and bleakly grey. It'll pass. I suppose.

I can deal with another failed cycle, but I just need to know that one day, not even one day very soon, that one day it will work for us.

Until then, i'll continue eating every chocolate item in my home and mopping up my tears and torrential, nasty, gushing AF. Yuck.

xx

11 comments:

swisschard said...

From someone who has had too many disappointing cycles and too many negatives: I am empathetic, and sorry, and as supportive as one can be from afar, electronically. It is true that planning the next (cycle or alternative) is the only thing that ever helps, but there are still unexpected crying jags and foul moods....

My Reality said...

I hope you at least enjoy the chocolate.

Sorry about the unwelcome visitor.

Knock Me Up said...

yes, desperately unhappy is the only way to describe it. I'm so sorry and I wish there were some way to know that we will eventually be successful. This really sucks and that is a huge understatement. Hold on to each other. We will all be holding you in our hearts.

Haven't checked my message yet. The red light on my machine is mocking me but I'm waiting for my SB to get home. I'm feeling just a bit low and losing hope as the spotting continues.

Try to enjoy your trip. Hugs.

Hopeful Mother said...

I am so sorry, Portia. I was really hoping this was the one.

Thinking of you...

Baby Blues said...

I'm so sorry Portia. Sometimes a good cry is all we need. But the chocolates and wine also helps. Hugs. I'm right here with you.

Artblog said...

Chocolate is good, it's an anti- depressant actually, any excuse eh! So sorry this cycle didn't work out :(

andi said...

oooo I was really hoping you would have good news my dear! I am very sad for you - and hope you have a great time in France. Let's have a coffee soon.

Love Andi
x

ultimatejourney said...

I just came across your blog. I'm sorry this cycle didn't work for you, and I wish the future wasn't so uncertain for us all. I hope the chocolate helps a little.

ellie said...

I am so sorry. My heart is with you both while you take time out.

Baby Blues said...

Just wanted to check on you Portia. I hope you're feeling much better.

Reproductive Jeans said...

Thanks for stopping by our blog...it is always a "comfort" to "meet" someone who is going through something similar--though, I wish this on NO ONE!

I am SO sorry AF came to visit...I know how frustrated you must be. Enjoy the wine and chocolate to the fullest!

? for you...how have you and Mr G worked through some of the guilt issues on his part--Mook is having a hard time dealing with the pain and guilt--and I feel lost at how to comfort...

Sending you many hugs...