Pinching myself

Today's beta is 660. More than double yesterday's. I'm concerned now it's going too quickly!! I must consult the good Dr Google.

When i went for today's test I saw the v lovely man who's been taking my blood each day for most of this cycle. He's a charming Nigerian born Dr who is not allowed to practice here and is working as a vampire whilst he studies some more. He's been lovely throughout and said yesterday he was sure it was good news. I was so pleased to tell him it was!

Overall, I've felt oddly distracted since yesterday's news. I've waited so long for this news and now it's here it almost doesn't seem real.

Physically, I feel exactly the same - apart from slightly tender boobs, some cramps (AF style back and tum pains) and the odd pinchy feeling in my general ute-al (i made that up but you know what I mean!) region. I'm also a little more tired. A sort of dragging whole body tiredness but not tiredness than makes me drop off unexpectedly in a narcoleptic sort of a way which is what I was expecting from reading accounts of pg bloggers. Oh, i'm also quite windy (TMI, I know) but perhaps the effect of all that progesterone - which yesterday was up in the 300's.

I'm very nervous that this will suddenly go away. There are so many new hurdles! Continuing betas, a scan in 2 weeks, making it past 9 weeks - which seems to be a bit of a crunch point and, of course, 12 weeks.

I don't want to sound ungrateful - I am so very lucky to have got this far. I can't believe we've finally got a little bundle of Mr G and Portia P cells in me and they're GROWING!! We could have a real live baby before I'm 40! Mr G and I are both very, very cautiously happy.

Oh - i've been to buy some HPT sticks. I've never had a BFN from them as i've only ever tested to confirm a failed cycle. As I was too scared to test this time i haven't had the pleasure yet. I have to POAS tomorrow just to prove to myself this is not a mistake with the numbers at the lab!

Finally - I just want to say thank you so much for all your good wishes and congratulation. I've had comments from some girls i thought had left me behind months ago. It's so good to know you're still out there rooting for me. Thank you so much. I feel v cared for!

I'm off to nourish me and my bundle of cells. xx