Sunday, February 17, 2008

Shortening odds...

The clinic called this afternoon. The last two embies didn't make it. The five cell didn't do much. The eight cell made it to blast ( I think) but the embryologist I spoke to seemed to be telling me it was not of good enough quality for them so it's good bye to them.

Although the embryologist did say that i shouldn't be upset as we did put the best two back, there has been some emotional fall out from that call. I had a bit of a cry and Mr G (who I could tell was upset too) gave me the "stay positive" talk.

I remember now why I HATE this so much. There's still 10 more days of poking myself with needles and worrying about every single cramp or twitch whilst regularly poking my boobs to see if they're (a) swollen and (b) sore. I'll be out of my mind by then.

Still, there's no choice really. I'm in it now!

Otherwise, very little else to report. I've pretty well sat on my behind for the last four days. I moved from bed to sofa yesterday when my parents came over.

I read many Sunday papers today and we've just watched Run Fat Boy Run - a really sweet, feel good movie. I'll hang on in there. Maybe, just maybe one of the ones inside is a keeper...

10 comments:

Carrie said...

Try not to compare the two you have safe to the others. Honestly, it isn't the same. I know it is all so difficult and two weeks will never seem longer.

I think sitting around and watching films is the very best thing you could do for yourself right now xx

soapchick said...

Hang in there Portia. Tracy over at Or Life is a Bed of Roses put the best 2 back, and none of her others made it to freeze - I think it was something like 6 or 7 that she lost. Anyway she is pregnant with twins so those 2 were the best! I'm praying the same thing happens to you!

My Reality said...

I am sorry the rest of the embryos didn't make it. It doesn't mean it is over though, I am hoping with you.

Thalia said...

Have the odds really shortened? The two you put back haven't got any worse since you selected them (or rather the embryologist did). Hang in there.

btw you know bedrest is nonsense, right?

Frenchie said...

I haven't been through this portion of the infertility "landscape" (IVF)--yet--but I can imagine how hard this must be. "Try and stay positive" seems like a useless thing to say, but...Try and stay positive! Like the other girls said, you've got the best ones in the best place. Hang in there!

Bea said...

It catches you by surprise, that last loss, doesn't it? You think transfer is it until beta, then you get a call from the embryologist telling you you've lost more...

Hugs and sit tight til the big test.

Bea

Almamay said...

I'm sorry to hear your news. Try and keep busy if you can, anything to keep distracted.

Foreverhopeful said...

I'm so sorry to hear your other embies didn't make it. I know how disappointing that is BUT you do have two great ones growing inside you and you just have to focus on those for now. Hang in there and wishing you lots of luck...!!!

Foreverhopeful said...

I also just tagged you (hopefully it will be a tiny distraction during your 2ww).

Infertili-Me said...

keeping our fingres crossed for you.....