Valentine's Day with a difference

I write to you from my bed. I'm surrounded by remote controls, telephones (land and mobile), books, my laptop and various drugs and pills.

As you may have guessed, the embies have landed. The clinic called yesterday morning to tell me I had two eight cells, a seven cell and a five cell. We could hold on and wait for more indication as there was little between them or go for transfer. I had no idea and Mr G wasn't much better. We decided to wait until midday to see if any of them had moved. At midday, the situation was the same, so they said, as the two eight cells were clearly ahead and we might as well put them in the best place for them.

I showered - important to be clean and coiffed for such an outing - booked acupuncture and set off. After a pre-transfer acupuncture session I popped into the blood letting place for a progesterone test. My favourite vampire was in. He's SO lovely and wished me and Mr P all the best. Then round to the clinic for the hand over. We were so pleased that the clinic's head honcho (who is the most lovely man with a fantastic bedside manner and inspiring confidence and calmness) did our transfer. He really took his time, cleaning up my bits and checking his route before the lights were dimmed and the (most lovely embryologist i've met so far) brought in the catheter loaded up with our best two. (Since the call, the seven cell had made it to eight, so we had three to chose from)

After a lie down on the operating theatre bed, I got up, dressed (this clinic get you into theatre gear from transfer) and got my drugs regime. Then it was off for post transfer acupuncture and home to lie on my bed where Mr G and I celebrated Valentine's Day with a big fat pizza - yum!

Mr G was so emotional during the transfer. I think the whole Valentine's thing got to him. I love him so much. I just hope I can hold onto these embies or at least one of them this time.

They've moved me onto a new drugs regime - Cle.xane twice a day, aspirin in the middle, something called Ritodr.ine four times a day for blood flow and (hurrah) the wonderful Geston.e.

I always felt i'd missed out by not using it before, especially since i've never lasted a 2WW without AF pitching up for a visit. HOWEVER when i saw the f'off HUGE needle I had second thoughts. OMG! I was freaking about it all evening until Mr G (complete with surgical hat he'd been given earlier for transfer) perched above my behind ready to inject. He laughed that this wasn't quite the Valentine's Day rear action he might once have had in mind...

Thank you to the wonderful Almamay who told me about EML.A cream - which is an anaesthetic cream you put on the injection site an hour before. I used it but was still sh**ting myself that it hadn't worked. It had though. I felt NOTHING! Thank you, thank you, thank you my dear Almamay - i'd link to your lovely blog but i'm useless with links. Perhaps i'll teach myself whilst on bed rest.

Soooooooo, I'll be in this bed for a couple more days. We're giving it our best this time. Lets hope our Valentine's Day will be one to remember for all the right reasons. It's really hard to express how I feel this time. Can't be too excited - i've been let down too many times for that and can't be unrealistic. I almost feel a bit silly getting excited, but I do have those moments of gurgling inner excitement from time to time. Beta is on 26 Feb.